I flippantly promised Helen I’d explain what it means when a rabbit crosses your path (the fascinating subject of animal totems), but then I realized that I can’t talk about any Soul Pursuits of that nature until I try to explain the energy universe in which I live.
You see, when I was 21, my first Soul Pursuit came upon me without warning and it changed my perceptions of everything. From my observations since then, I’d have to say that I live in a different universe from a lot of other folks, so we’d better start there if we’re going to have a reasonable conversation.
I was a drama/journalism student at San Diego State when I came across a book called The Infinite Concept of Cosmic Creation by Ernest L. Norman. It stopped me cold in my pell-mell rush through life and stood me and everything I’d ever been taught on its head.
Then it wrapped me up in visions of an infinite universe in which everything lives interdimensionally, all propelled into being by an Infinite Creative Intelligence that swirls into our lives through our personal connections with it. Our energy connections. This web of being never ceases—not when we’re born, not when we die to this dimension, not when we’re reborn in a higher dimension, nor when we return to this one later on, after we’ve absorbed some new ideas about life continuous that we want to try out here.
The creatures around us are part of this energy web, and so are the plants, rocks, and your 1965 Mustang or whatever floats your boat.
Think like that for long enough (three and a half decades for me), and the world around you takes on some new, pardon my term, dimensions. Watch a bee and you know it’s following the impulses of Infinite Intelligence coursing through its own interdimensional connections and propelling its actions here in the third dimension. You realize that’s why strictly third-dimensional scientists still can’t explain bees or ants or even many functions of their own bodies!
Then you gradually realize that your own higher-dimensional energy body (psychic anatomy, to use Dr. Norman’s term for it) is storing everything you think, say, and do in an indestructible form. It’s from this interdimensional matrix that you create your Earth life: the way you look, the people you are drawn to or repelled by, events that unfold (again) in your present life. Your beliefs in the present moment are completely colored by your past, and past-life, and higher-life experiences. The very energies which fuel your life are continually passing through this filter you’ve personally constructed over the course of many lifetimes of experience in this world, and out of it.
Whoa. So what I’m thinking now (eating now, saying now, doing now, complaining about now)—it’s all going to stay with me and replay again at some future date? Only this time, I’ll be the victim of my own little negative quirks and habits? I can’t just lash out at the person who treated me so unfairly without paying the price for it later?? It’s all going to boomerang back on me?
You think about that for a while and you start to change your behavior. But first, of course, you see how everyone else is screwing up. That’s much easier.
Then you start to see that in this web of interconnected energy, you’re just one small facet but vital. Whatever happens to the Universal Matrix affects you, and whatever you do affects It. You stop killing spiders for a time. Then you realize that you’re eating some of the creatures who share this energy universe with you. Okay, so you try to stop eating the ones that walk & crawl & swim. But wait—plants are no less alive than animals and insects! And just as intelligent. They’ve even been proven to scream, fear, and so on. Vegetarianism isn’t the no-killing diet you thought it might be. Not when you really conceive how closely interlinked we all are in this Infinite Matrix. You sigh, pick up your fork, and thank every single morsel on your plate for giving its life for you.
To live in this world, this physical, third dimension, you must eat of the energies of life from another living being. And one day, the ants and bacteria and worms will eat you, or your ashes will fertilize another plant-being. The energy you’ve consumed from other living creatures? You will be passing it along, all through your life. And then you will give over your very last bit of it.
But wait. Not ALL of it. Only the physical bits. The rest goes with you, all the higher-dimensional energy structures you’ve been storing up for your entire life (lives). They are indestructible. But changeable.
Aye, there’s the rub: How to change what you don’t like? How to reconfigure your personal psychic anatomy, which you built, energy vortex upon energy vortex, and which now serves as your filter of the Infinite Intelligence flowing into your present existence. How do you “correct” the filter of indestructible (E=MC²) energy you built for yourself back when you were making decisions you thought brilliant, which you now think of as horrible mistakes? Must those mistakes replay in all your future lives? Forever?
And that brings us back to my endless Soul Pursuits.
(Next time: My Greatest Soul Pursuit of All: Working Out Negative Karma, or, The Power in Me!)